Taking the ups with the downs

I began my last post (in June!) with “So, with my new resolve to write shorter, more frequent posts, here’s the next one…”

And I did write that one post. Apparently, more frequent posting was not to be. I have been unable to concentrate on anything at all for months. I’m not sure if it’s because of the steroids I’ve been taking since last December, chemo brain, anxiety/depression or a mixture of all of these. The fact is it doesn’t really matter what’s causing it. But it does upset me, sometimes more than others.

So this is a concerted effort to maintain a record for myself and other interested parties and to not let this blog whither and die the death of no posts and no readers. It will not be one of my most literary posts, I’m sure.

Timehop 18 months

Yesterday was 16 November, marking exactly two and a half years post-transplant. It would have passed by unnoticed, if it hadn’t been for Timehop.

Such is my current state that I didn’t feel at all celebratory. I suppose as time passes, surviving becomes less newsworthy. Having said that, I intend to celebrate my three year anniversary in May. I’ve no idea how, but I’m open to suggestions…

A few months ago, I began a post, which was to be a year in photos. I take a LOT of photos. I thought if I could post photos, it wouldn’t require much writing and I could still share my journey. It didn’t happen. I couldn’t concentrate sufficiently to even do that.

So, mentally, this is how it is for me right now…

Partly anxiety – not of anything specific, but possibly due to a sense of needing to do everything I want to do, right now because at some point it could be too late. No one warns you about that side-effect. I suppose there is also a subconscious awareness that a relapse will occur at some point and while I really don’t spend time thinking about or worrying about when that could happen, it must play a part in this low-level generalised anxiety.

Partly effects of steroids – high as a kite; running around doing everything all at the same time, which is not the same as multi-tasking – more like no-tasking, as it is rare for me to actually complete a task. Rushing around; going everywhere; being interested in all kinds of things; taking up all manner of exciting opportunities and putting myself forward for an impossible variety of voluntary and/or creative activities. Speeding even when I sit still – the surface calm is a lie. My mind is usually rushing along like a river in flood, often causing the same amount of chaos. I wear everyone else out with my mania and then finally myself, when I just crash, my mood swings and I just need to sleep and cry a lot.

Partly chemo brain and chemo fatigue – I can’t remember things, I can’t do some of the things I used to be really good at, things that require a very small amount of concentration, my brain gets so very tired so easily and quickly. Any mental task I consider needs to be very quick and easy, otherwise I just fade out and can’t maintain focus. I can rarely remember why I turned around in the kitchen to do or fetch something. I mean literally, as I turn, the thought vanishes into vapour and I’m left in a dither, frustrated and more anxious. That thing I can’t recall may be of vital importance…

Even writing this is making me feel tired and unfocused. I can’t recall all I wanted to write. I think I may have to stop here and just post this and hope I can return to write another day about what is happening physically and medically.

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Blurred lines…?

So, with my new resolve to write shorter, more frequent posts, here’s the next one…

My Hickman line half fell out on Friday 13 June. I don’t believe the date was to blame. I do wonder though, if perhaps nurse Emma cutting the stitch the day before had anything to with it…? It was over three weeks from being inserted so the tissue should have grafted, but clearly it hadn’t.

After a shower, I noticed the cuff on the line was visible and half way down the tubing. At first I thought the cuff had slipped down, but soon realised that the cuff is firmly attached to the line. This cuff should lie under the skin at the point where the line exits my chest; it’s main purpose being to act as an anchor to keep the line IN my chest. Fail! The line itself had partially slipped out.

20140630-010043-3643421.jpg“There is a small cuff around the central line. It can be felt under the skin, just above the exit site. The tissue under the skin grows around this cuff in about three weeks and holds the line safely in place.” – quote from the Macmillan website

Foolishly, I pushed it back in and then realised that I had just left myself open to a high risk of infection. I called my specialist nurse who agreed it had been foolish, but there was nothing to be done except to keep a watchful eye for any signs of redness, swelling, soreness and feeling ill. As I was going away for the weekend, I took a thermometer with me just in case.

imageimageFortunately, none of the above happened and I had a great weekend away celebrating a friend’s 50th birthday and staying at The Ceramic House in Brighton, which was hugely inspiring.

However, on my return, throughout Sunday night, I was very ill with sickness and diarrhoea, several times, mostly at the same time. It was horrendous. I absolutely HATE being sick. But I was relieved that it had nothing to do with the line. Phew!

I got over that in a few days of resting, including my friend V, who was visiting from Belgium, having the same thing on the Tuesday night, so her visit wasn’t quite as ‘outgoing’ as we’d hoped. Nonetheless we still managed a day of charity shop shopping and a cinema visit, plus a walk in my gorgeous nature reserve, where I managed to collect 17 mosquito bites that itched and itched like hell, with no respite from Cetirizine or Piriton. My legs are now so cratered from scratching that they look like a fleshy moonscape.

imageThe next occurrence was on Thursday 19 June, exactly one month to the day after having it inserted, the line completely fell out. There I was in my bathroom and Clack! I look down on the bathroom floor and my line is lying there with spatters of blood on the floor and the basin pedestal, and more to the point, NOT in my chest.

This time, I made no attempt to put it back in place.

Fortunately, due to problems accessing the line for the ECP treatment, which is the reason I have the line in the first place, I had booked myself into clinic that day to see what to do next. (I’ll write about ECP in a separate post). I saw Dr Emma, who’s the main consultant for GvHD and ECP. Unsurprisingly, she asked for an urgent appointment to have a new line inserted so I could continue with treatment.

I think this may have happened anyway. The previous plan, when the line had only partially slipped out, was to have a tubogram. Yes, that really is what it’s called. It would have meant returning to radiology for them to check where it was positioned and possibly reposition it, or if necessary, remove it and insert a new line.

There was a chance I could go in the following day, but I was very pleased when I found out that wasn’t going to happen. My visitor was still with me and was actually leaving that day, so I wouldn’t have been able to accompany her to the station. And I would still have to find a friend to be with me afterwards. I now have this procedure under sedation, after which, they insist that you are supervised for several hours afterwards.

So, on Tuesday, 24 June, I had offers from two friends, Tracey to come over around noon and take me into hospital and Janet to collect me afterwards and spend the evening with me. I was also feeling much improved from the nasty bug, so it boded well.

Tracey dropped me off around 1pm at Daycase for a 2pm procedure. First they check observations, do the usual pre-procedure checks and give me a gown. I also asked them to cannulate me before going up to Radiology as they often have difficulty with my recalcitrant veins upstairs. The Haematology nurses are much more adept with my tricky blood vessels. Even so, it took three attempts by three different nurses before nurse Jeff succeeded with an easy and painless baby cannula.

There was a long delay before going up to Radiology, partly caused by a consultant for an earlier patient arriving late and partly due to a new protocol, where sedated patients cannot now return to Daycase to recover, in case anything occurs that means they can’t leave before Daycase closes at 7pm. This new protocol had not been effectively communicated to the Transplant Specialist nurses, so Lisa, who had arranged the procedure for me, had not booked a bed on a ward for me. This meant that Daycase nurse, Cath was running around with a phone attached to her ear, begging the Bed Manager to find me a bed in which to recover.

She was successful, eventually! But both of these factors together meant that I didn’t go up for my 2pm procedure until around 4:30. And I didn’t get into theatre until almost 5pm. I was not a happy bunny. In fact I was a very grumpy, hungry, thirsty bunny. I had not eaten since 10:15, nor drunk anything since 12:00. The patronising ‘darling’ and ‘sweetheart’ comments from the radiology nurse did NOT help at all.

However, once I was in theatre, all went without a hitch. The team all introduced themselves to me and discussed what would happen, taking into account my preferences, including drawing an X to mark the preferred exit spot on my upper right breast. I really appreciated the good practice of an inclusive and respectful conversation. It feels like you’re all in it together, rather than being a slab of meat to be cut into and shipped out.

I was reacquainted with radiology nurse Chris, who had been just starting to learn how to fit PICC lines when I had mine fitted for the allo transplant two years ago. He’s now very proficient in PICC line insertion and repositioning, but not yet inserting Hickman lines. It felt comfortable to have a chat and joke with someone who almost felt like an old friend, as he administered the sedation.

The previous two line insertions (in February and May) were also done under sedation and as far as I was concerned, I was knocked out for the entire time. This may or may not be the whole truth… They say that sedation causes amnesia, so it may be that I was conscious but so completely forgot what happened that I decided I must have been unconscious. Without asking the radiology team, I have no way of knowing.

However, this time, I remember being awake and the sting of the cut into my skin, but not much else. This time, I didn’t sleep afterwards, which is I think, why I recall the experience. Around 6pm they wheeled me on a gurney to the Surgical Short Stay Unit (SSSU) to recover, where I was sufficiently awake to jump off and up onto the bed and demanded food and drink straight away.

I was supposed to stay there for three hours with half-hourly observations. After an hour though, I’d had enough. I felt fine, I was awake and the last place I wanted to be was sat unnecessarily in a hospital bed, just waiting to be discharged. I spoke to the SHO on duty, Dr Scarlet (in the conservatory with the candlestick… Sorry, old Cluedo reference!), who completely understood but advised me that if I left, I would have to sign a disclaimer to say I was going against medical advice.

I called Janet and as soon as she arrived, I grabbed my bag to leave. But oh no, I now had to wait for them to draft the disclaimer. Ten minutes later, a nurse came with a very repetitive letter for me to sign. If it mentioned that I was supposed to but was refusing to ‘stay three hours for monitoring’ once, it said it about four times. Nonetheless, I read it thoroughly and signed before they changed their minds and added a fifth ‘three hours for monitoring’.

In the end, I got out of there at 7:40pm, which was almost three hours after the procedure. If I’d stayed the expected three hours from arrival in SSSU, I wouldn’t have left before 9pm. Instead, Janet and I got a Chinese take-away, chatted, knitted and watched some easy TV. She went home as I went to bed, around 10:30. I was very ready to sleep by then, complete with the stretchy t-shirt bra that the radiologist, Dr Kate, had advised me to wear at night, to ensure I don’t roll over and catch or dislodge my precious new line while asleep. I am wearing it nightly for the first week.

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So far, and I’m saying this with caution, it seems to be settling in well, with only some tightness at my neck, but less bleeding than the last one. I will find out later today if it actually works, when I attend for the continuation of my ECP treatment.

Having read this through before publishing it, I have to laugh… Despite my best intentions, I’ve still managed to write an epic tale. With thanks to Pippa for encouraging me to join her for a couple of hours of writing, which got me back into it again. Who knows, maybe the next one will be short and sweet, but don’t hold your breath!

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Short snippets

As regular readers may have noticed, my posts seem to have become rather erratic and infrequent. This is mostly because I can’t seem to focus well enough to write about what’s happening in as much clarity and detail as previously. I don’t know if this is a long-term effect of treatment, i.e. chemo brain, or just living with ongoing low-level anxiety…?

I find it hard to concentrate without being anxious and restless and hard to relax without being in semi-comatose resting mode. The middle ground where I’m sufficiently relaxed to sit down calmly and sufficiently focused to gather my thoughts seems quite elusive.

I write a lot in my head, or at least I have a lot of writing ideas that appear in my head, in bed, in the shower, getting ready to go out, driving or otherwise not in a position to sit down and actually put fingers to keyboard. Damn!

I can sometimes get it together to capture short mindful bursts of writing. So it occurred to me recently that perhaps I’d be better at writing blog posts more frequently, keeping them short and less convoluted, maybe even less informative, but in that way, maintaining a record of what’s happening to me and allowing readers to know what’s going on, at least in brief.

For me this would solve three issues:
– one of me not writing and then the seemingly immense mountain of backlog rearing up to frighten me off from ever writing again;
– two, when I speak to people I don’t see regularly, not having to recap everything that I’ve gone through when they ask me how I am and how I’ve been. Hopefully, they’ll know, if only the basics and it’ll be easier to fill in the gaps of what they’re interested to know more about.
– and finally, three, and most importantly for me, I will have a record of my journey through Myelomaville. It’s this that upsets me most, losing my way, losing my memory… also a result of chemo brain, or menopause, or age, or who knows what?

So, with my new resolve, this is a short snippety post. Hopefully to be followed by more… Watch this space!

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Recording my anniversary

I’ve not written a blog post for ages. Lots of stuff, both medical and fun, has happened and is happening. Nothing serious or life-threatening on the medical side, although the visit from the Critical Care Unit nurse while I was in hospital with the infection the other week was a tad disconcerting. However, I’m out of hospital and well… and yet not writing.

Whatever the reasons, which I won’t get into here, I’m annoyed that I’m not finding the motivation, space and time to write, as I’d like to keep up a steady record of this odd journey I’m on.

Today, however, I was on a train with my iPad, so it was an ideal opportunity to just write. I especially want to publish a post today because it’s the two year anniversary of my stem cell transplant and as such needs to be acknowledged here.

I am acknowledging this momentous achievement in other ways too…

20140517-082548.jpgI’ve been to London today (thus the train journey) to be recorded in interview about my experiences post-transplant. It’s for a video Anthony Nolan are making as part of their ‘A Road Map for Recovery’ campaign. They are pushing for a change in how late effects post-transplant care is funded and managed. They have already used some of my story in the campaign report (I’m on page 23).

At present, the first 100 days post-transplant is funded by NHS England, whereas afterwards, it’s down to the regional Clinical Commissioning Groups (replacing Primary Care Trusts), which means that patient care could vary depending on where they live.

Funding-wise, it’s that cliché of a ‘postcode lottery’, but for patients, it’s just their recovery, their symptoms, their treatment, their experience and most importantly, their life. People do not fall into defined milestones as simply as funding criteria do. Anthony Nolan want all post-transplant care to be covered by NHS England so that every patient has access to quality care no matter how many days after the transplant they need treatment or support.

As part of the campaign, Anthony Nolan are creating a short animated video to put across the experiences of transplant patients, so politicians and health budget authorities can understand better how it is for us. They think my story is an excellent example for the campaign. I had very few medical needs in the first hundred days, and only minor issues in the first year. Almost all of the Graft versus Host Disease [GvHD] that has needed treatment began a year or more after my transplant. I have been very lucky in that my care has been seamless and excellent throughout. But others will have not had such a good experience.

I am more than happy, honoured even, to speak about my experiences, even the indelicate bits. Being articulate helps, although being succinct required some prompting, which won’t surprise anyone who knows me.

After the interview recording and before I took the train home, I had a joyful half hour cycling on one of the many hire bicycles available all over London. You can easily just hire a bike for half an hour to get somewhere and drop it off at your destination, for just £2. It’s one of the best £2 I’ve ever spent I think, taking a bike from Pimlico, along the river to Westminster, up Whitehall to Trafalgar Square and then to Charing Cross, where I neatly slid it back into a cycle stand and continued on to St Pancras station by tube. I thoroughly recommend it. What was even more special for me was that this was the first cycle ride I’ve done this year. It felt really good.

20140517-074201.jpgWhen I arrived home, I was greeted by a close friend, without whom, this journey would have been a hell of a lot harder. She brought me a wonderful anniversary gift… a beautiful cookery book that I’ve lusted after for a while: Jerusalem, by Yotam Ottolenghi and Sami Tamimi. They share not just recipes, but also histories and anecdotes from all the different communities that make up today’s culinary experience in Jerusalem, with the obligatory enticing photographs.

Even if I never cook anything from it, I will get great pleasure from just opening its pages. I was touched by receiving any gift at all and delighted with this one in particular.

20140517-002740.jpgLater this evening, we went out for dinner at one of Nottingham’s top restaurants, World Service. Being an avid Masterchef fan, I expected tiny portions of beautifully presented foods, served on pieces of slate and adorned with ‘foam’ and ‘micro herbs’. However, I can report that, while pleasingly presented, the food was served on plates, looking like food, tasting excellent and in a relaxed and relaxing environment… and all washed down with a rather decadent bottle of Sancerre.

20140516-233706.jpgLast year, a group of six of us went to Paris for the day to celebrate my one year anniversary. It felt like a very big deal. This year feels important but I didn’t want anything so grand or glamorous. I’m feeling quieter, more reserved and reflective, so I wanted something much lower key and closer to home.

20140517-004304.jpgThis year, a different group of six of us are going for afternoon tea at Chatsworth House tomorrow afternoon. Some of us may go for crayfish and champagne in true celebratory style, but that’s not obligatory, just tea, sandwiches, pastries and a scone, preceded by a gentle walk on the estate will be lovely. Just doing something elegant and special yet quite simple seems totally apt and I am looking forward to it in a calm, happy way, rather than the slightly crazed excitement of last year.

This year I’m in a different place with my emotions and my attitude. I think I am more accepting of steadily continuing to live and working out how I want to do that, compared to last year’s thrill and manic delight in still being alive.

Who knows how I shall feel at three years? But it feels good to consider a three year celebration as a highly likely event. So, I want to thank not just friends and family for accompanying me on this journey, but also express huge gratitude to all the haematology, respiratory and other staff who have helped to keep me alive, mobile and well.

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Infection alert!

Friday morning, 4 April, saw me not-quite-leaping, more like cautiously rolling my stiff self, out of bed at an early hour to go off to volunteer at a Register & Be A Lifesaver [R&BE] stem cell register recruitment event at Chellaston Academy school in Derby.

20140410-192412.jpgThe school are very supportive of R&BE and the teachers made us welcome, while the Year 12 students waited patiently and good-humouredly for their turn to spit into our little tubes. Despite not feeling 100%, I did my bit and between four of us, we registered 77 eager young people. It was an excellent morning’s work.

I got back home late morning and gradually began to feel less and less well and more and more incredibly sleepy and shivery, until I gave in and fell asleep on the couch under a blanket. I had an appointment for an MRI scan at 6:30, which I thought I might be able to make, but I slept right through until the ringing of my phone woke me up. It was already 6:30 and the scan department were asking where I was. I apologised but there was nothing I could do. I felt dreadful. Even if I had been awake, I wouldn’t have felt able to go. The appointment would need to be rearranged.

A bit later, I fed the cat, had a drink and crawled upstairs to bed. I managed to remove most of my clothes, leaving them exactly where they fell on the floor, and collapsed into bed in my t-shirt and knickers. On Saturday morning I realised that I’d gone to bed without removing my contact lenses, so I removed them and found that my eyes were so dry and sore that I couldn’t see or even open my eyes fully. Then I just slept and slept and slept, with brief awakenings for cat feeding, the odd drink, toilet visits and teeth brushing because my mouth felt so disgusting. The teeth brushing didn’t do much to alter that.

I was supposed to be on training on Saturday afternoon for a new voluntary project I’ve recently signed up for, with Nottingham Nightstop, being a host for a homeless young person for a couple of days a month. I knew I couldn’t make it, but I also couldn’t see any details on my phone to call to let them know I couldn’t come. I wrangled with my sense of responsibility for a while until I realised that there was nothing I could do and I would just have to deal with it later.

Despite alternately shivering and sweating, when I took my temperature, it was its usual 36 point something (just below what is considered normal, 37°). It even went as low as 35.6°. I did not have a temperature. I was surprised but very relieved.

Like any post-transplant patients, I have to be careful about infections, the best indicator of which is a high temperature, i.e. over 38°. If my temperature gets to 38° or over, I am supposed to call in to the hospital and as has happened in the past (in August 2011: here and here, then in December 2012: here and here), I know they will want me to come in for tests, treatment and monitoring.

Both previous times, the infections were quickly and easily treated even though they didn’t manage to identify exactly what bug I had and I was discharged after two nights each time, which is for me, two nights too long to be in hospital.

So when I woke on Sunday, like a good girl, I took my temperature again. It was now 37.1°, which is by no means high, although a little raised for me. For some strange reason, I decided to check again and this time, only a minute later, the thermometer read 38.5°. Struck by the difference, I took it again. This time I was distressed to see that it had risen to 38.6°. Now that is a high temperature!

I called the Haematology pager holder and was gratified to hear one of the Myeloma specialist nurses, Jenny answer. As I described my situation, she recognised my voice, which was most comforting, particularly when I was feeling so dreadful and alone. As expected, she told me I’d need to come in. And, also as expected, there were no free beds on either of the Haematology wards. I would have to go to SRU (the Specialist Receiving Unit).

IMG_2986I duly packed a case for about two days, asked my neighbour to feed my cat, Myfanwy Lovebug and dressed in a fashion… By which, I do not mean fashionably; I mean, I just put a dress-like nightie on, with no bra or socks, just boots and a big cardigan… and knickers of course… You can’t go anywhere safely without knickers!

Still feeling woozy, I gently and carefully drove myself to the hospital and checked in. No, it’s really nothing like a hotel, but what other term could I use?

Having tried to cannulate me a few times in my arms and hand, without any luck, they took blood for cultures out of my Hickman line. They weren’t keen to do this initially, because a Hickman line is a prime source for infection, so a ‘purer’ blood sample from a different site would be better. Alas again, my veins weren’t playing ball.

20140424-162704.jpgOn Tuesday, having filled me up with fluids – I’m not joking, I put on about 4.5kg just from the fluids… and most of that in my feet – and two types of broad spectrum IV antibiotics: Vancomycin and Tazocin, they advised me that they’d grown a culture of staphylococcus aureus from my blood.

Here’s the science bit:

Staph. aureus is a common and pretty harmless bacterium found in the respiratory tract and on the skin, but in the blood it can be life-threatening, because the bacteria can travel through the bloodstream and infect almost any site in the body, particularly heart valves, bones and lungs, leading to endocarditis, osteomyelitis or pneumonia.

Apparently, and clearly what happened with me, the bacteria can accumulate on medical devices in the body, such as a Hickman line, which is inserted through the skin into blood vessels.

And I’ve just found out that MRSA, which all in- and out-patients get swabbed for on a monthly basis, actually stands for meticillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus. I never knew that.

They swiftly changed the antibiotics to Flucloxacillin, which has a much narrower spectrum of activity and is indicated for staph. aureus amongst other bacterial infections. Unfortunately, I had to continue with this regime by IV for a week, four times a day. That meant that I had to remain an in-patient.

The previous day I’d got it into my head that I’d had enough of being in hospital and that no matter what, I was going to leave the next day, even if it meant attending for treatment several times a day. The doctors, whom I trust, however, had other plans for me.

The news made me completely miserable. I am taking part in a year-long Certificate in Playback Theatre Practice, which takes place over nine months from March till November and that weekend (11-13 April) was the first of two workshops on Conducting. And no, we’re not talking about orchestral conducting. It’s about the role within Playback Theatre of the MC or director, the person who invites members of the audience to share their stories and invites the audience to “Let’s watch…” All I can say is that missing this weekend was a total bummer. I was so looking forward, not just to learning and participating but also to seeing some Playback friends from the previous workshop and from other Playback gatherings. Boo hoo!

But I had to just ‘suck it up’, as they say. Which I did and eventually, after a couple of days of sulking, I came around and surrendered to the inevitable. The inevitable also included being cannulated a total of five times over only eight days.

While I was in, partly due to how disgusting I find hospital food and partly due to the nauseous side effects of the antibiotics, I couldn’t eat a thing. I kept my fluid intake up but my stomach was grouchy and gurgling and that alone made me feel dreadful. Not even mentioning a few bouts of incontinent diarrhoea, brought on by the bloody antibiotics. Oh joy!

On Friday evening, my good friend Janet came to visit, complete with clothes she had fetched from my house and a Chinese take-away. I gobbled it down and we had a fun, if somewhat odd evening, chatting, eating and sorting out a knitting project that I had messed up, while ignoring the fact we were sitting in a hospital room. It alleviated the gloom I was feeling, but later my stomach revolted and gurgled into the night, along with a further unpleasant diarrhoea experience.

Finally, Monday came around and I was so happy to see Mark, the registrar, who told me I could go home. That was around 10:00. But of course, nothing is as smooth as I’d like and the oral antibiotics that I still had to take for a further week had not arrived from Pharmacy. Bloody typical!

I was not to be deterred. The nurse, Matt gave me my midday dose to take with me and I agreed to return later to collect the rest. I trotted off to spend a restful few hours at Maggie’s, on the hospital campus. I went across town for my 2:00pm Tai Chi class and returned after 3:30 to find that the lift up to the ward was not working. I climbed the stairs slowly and when I arrived at the second floor, was annoyed but not surprised to find that the blasted drugs had still not arrived.

Nurse Matt came to the rescue by offering to go and fetch them from Pharmacy, so I waited patiently in the Daycase waiting room and finally by 4:15, I left hospital properly and completely… with only the need to attend clinic again on Thursday. It’s never bloody-ending!

P.S. Common adverse drug reactions associated with the use of Flucloxacillin include diarrhoea and nausea. And yes, of course I continued with both even when I was back at home – adding to my already dodgy guts from Graft versus Host Disease [GvHD] – along with a mild bout of thrush, which I decided not to bother treating. I’m so sick of taking medication, I couldn’t bear to take anything else, and I only had mild symptoms. As anticipated, it went away once I was no longer taking the antibiotics. I’m getting quite good at being my own medical practitioner these days. Well, there have to be some benefits to this experience!

I’m fully recovered now except for my left hand which still bears the brunt of so much cannulation… One of the veins is raised and a bit hardened, so that in moments of boredom I can run my fingers over it, moving it from side to side, as though there’s a little tube inside my skin. I suppose it just makes me special, right?

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One hundred Likes!

I’ve just received notification from WordPress that I’ve had a total of 100 Likes on my blog posts.

Number one hundred came in the form of my good friend, Wendy who also blogs and for your prize… you get to go on holiday with me… again! x

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Vlog #2: Admitted to hospital

I’ve just spent eight days in hospital due to a serious infection via my Hickman line. I’m in the midst of writing about it, but having difficulty concentrating, so it may take some time.

In the meantime, here’s a little video blog/vlog I made while I was incarcerated.

Enjoy!

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